"...But I shall not give up so easy"

"My devotion has a definition
Something in my mind kept me all the time
If it rains, or if the sun shines
Looking just for you baby, looking just for you baby"

"Music is a matter of struggle."

"A classical reggae should be accepted in any part of the world. Freedom, that's what it's asking for; acceptance, that's what it needs, and understanding, that's what reggae's saying. You have a certain love come from hard struggle, long suffering. Through pain you guard yourself with that hope of freedom, not to give up...""[8]

With all of the insincere and empty music constantly being pumped out of radios, televisions or even computers, it is reassuring to realize that there is no fluff or filler with Joe Higgs' music; instead, he poured every last drop of his soul and emotion into every note and syllable, to not only express his own spiritual voice but possibly as a way to better other peoples' lives as well.


"There's A Reward"
Everyday my heart is sore
Seeing that I'm so poor
But I shall not give up so easy
There's a reward for me, there's a reward for me
Though I'm bordered down with shame
There's no one for me to blame
But I shall not give up so easy
There's a reward for me, there's a reward for me
Sometimes I feel like a motherless child
You know no one cares for me
I've never known sympathy
Sometimes I look to this world with a smile
Man you hear what I say

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Talula Love Bottoms understands the above idea...
"Music is a matter of struggle".

It is in this understanding and appreciation that
"There's A Reward" is an anthem to her as well.

It is not easy to say "I AM AN ARTIST"...and to try to live
as an artist in all that you do, in all that you say, and
all that you are.
It is a struggle. Talula's intent is to identify the struggle
within her viewers and sing:

There's A Reward.

In all that you do.
In all of your love.
In all of your kindness.
In every effort you make to generate positive energy.
To create. To give. To empower.

There's A Reward.

FREEDOM!

"We should all live as one, like the colors of the rainbow."
-Joe Higgs

CAILIN CALLAHAN - BRINGS JOY!

Talula walks a tight rope through life with this person.

There are people so talented, so true to who they are...
so wickedly inspiring in their conviction -
that they speak your words...
while speaking their own.

And it makes you feel.

This musician is a wanderer.
But she is not lost.

She is kind, giving, honest and true.
In Talula's life...
treasured.
An inspiration I am lucky to also call a friend.

And she gave me Joy!
I wanted to hold onto it...
but Joy is not meant to be boxed up for later.
If someone gives you Joy...you
keep passing it along.

I try not to mention heartache. It is too real to
most of us.
This heartache that I have - I've been trying to give it away.

Because I don't want it. But in Contemplation -
It is in the heartache that I heal.

Joy by Cailin Callahan


its been days since ive missed you
its been hours since ive cried
well its been days since ive needed you
with each day i feel more alive

chorus:
you made me believe i meant nothing,
to no one
made me believe i was not something,
or someone
you told me i could never be, would never be....
but i am.
but i am.
well here i am.

mentally i feel free
physically im relieved
ive given myself time to heal
all these wounds you made bleed

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Thank you!

OH NO! There's a Frog on My Toe!!!

Talula Love Bottoms
LOVES
to Laugh.

Today is a day for laughter.

If you grow old...and don't have wrinkles -
it simply means you haven't laughed enough.

I wish you all laughter.
And for those of you who don't have it -
I hope you find it.

It lessens the load...
fixes your broken road...

kiss a toad...
and he's still a toad...
guess what -
he's a toad.

TALULA's ALL TIME FAVORITE SONG EVER.
(art in the works...)

(but I just have a feeling...
someone out there might need this today!)



Poppa I know
There's a frog on my toe
Maybe I'll call him Jethro
Maybe I'll grow up to be
As wise and as good as he
And maybe I'll come back
After you're long gone

Poppa I'm sure
The worms have eaten you now
And Jethro's been on some Frenchy's plate
Long ago
Now I'm pretty sure
That I listen to every word
'Cause you're still here
Telling me still

Slap them boys when they're naughty
Make them crawl, make you haughty
Make you strong, little girl
You paint them toes the reddish colour
And you know one day
You're gonna be bigger than a flea
You're gonna be bigger than that old
Poison ivy tree

Now I'm pretty sure
That I think you'd come and visit
And talk sometimes
Kind of like Gidget and
A funny little chance
Like an Indian Brave
He said "We all grew fat
When the white man came"
But one day girl
You're gonna learn to make them crawl
Make them grow tall
But have the grace
To be a lady with disgrace
And you fry them 'taters
And you make them with ladies hands
I know you're my pappy's baby

Talula Love Bottoms LOVES head...Radiohead that is...

The Decade in Radiohead: Ed O'Brien on "Kid A" to "In Rainbows"
"What we're trying to do now is make art without fear"

(a segment from a Rolling Stone Interview that Talula is particularly fond of...)


Do you feel more or less empowered than you did in 2000 — as a musical concern, as a band trying to make art in a strange world?
On a more personal level, if you went back nine, 10 years, you'd find that external events exerted way more influence. Imminent war — things like that affected us much more. Now, I feel more empowered, that these things cannot create heaven or hell within me.

In terms of the band, we feel way more empowered in terms of our art and what we're doing. We have been rehearsing for the last four weeks, for this new record. And we are in a very different place, a very new place. I don't know if this is relevant, but I was talking with Philip [Selway, drummer] three days ago about this. We were saying, "What's different?" And one of the things is we do things without fear. A lot of where we come from — our education, our upbringing — manifests itself in the shadow of fear. I love that Talking Heads album title, Fear of Music. There has been a lot of that. And in a sense, I don't think it served us too badly. It kept us on our toes. It kept us trying to seek new areas artistically.

The trouble is, as you get older, fear is not a great motivator. If you have fear, you can't relax. [The 2007 album] In Rainbows definitely hints at that. The way that album sounded actually goes against the grain of those two years, the gestation period. That was fear-based time. But the album didn't turn out that way. And certainly the gigs after it hinted at a different way of being. What we're trying to do now is make art without fear. You're relaxing. There is more joy in what you do.

FEAR.
What a great topic.
In this idea...this creation of who Talula is...
in all of this -
has been surrounded by fear.
NOT EVERYONE WILL LIKE TALULA. NOT EVERYONE WILL UNDERSTAND TALULA.
NOT EVERYONE LIKES RADIOHEAD...NOT EVERYONE UNDERSTANDS RADIOHEAD...
but they move forward in experimenting, challenging themselves and
practicing. rehearsing. executing.

Talula Love Bottoms is on this same level - in understanding...

AND WITHOUT FEAR!!!!

"if you want me, fucking come and get me...I'm ready"

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The artwork is Titled "Black Holes and Revelations"
It is industrial...like Radioheads music.
It is complex like their instrumentals....

It starts out with a ridiculous fucking drum intro...
like rain pounding on tin roofs..

But it is sad, it is broken and it is trying at the
same time to be beautiful. Like Talula.

"Packed Like Sardines In A Crushed Tin Box"

Talula is so Vicky Cristina Barcelona

Talula Love Bottoms goes to the movies.

Vicky Cristina Barcelona is a 2008 American/Spanish drama romance film written and directed by Woody Allen. The film stars Javier Bardem, Penélope Cruz, Scarlett Johansson and Rebecca Hall.

The plot centers on two American women, Vicky and Cristina, spending a summer in Barcelona, where they meet an artist who is attracted to both of them while still enamored of his mentally and emotionally unstable ex-wife María Elena. The film was shot in Avilés, Barcelona, and Oviedo, and was Allen's fourth consecutive film shot outside of the United States.


Plot

Vicky (Rebecca Hall) and Cristina (Scarlett Johansson) visit Barcelona for the summer, staying with Vicky's distant relative Judy (Patricia Clarkson) and her husband, Mark Nash (Kevin Dunn). A narrator (Christopher Evan Welch), present throughout the film, describes the two friends: Vicky is practical and traditional in her approach to love and commitment, and is engaged to the reliable but unromantic Doug (Chris Messina). She is in Barcelona getting her masters in "Catalan identity". Cristina, on the other hand, is a nonconformist, spontaneous but unsure of what she wants from life or love.

At an art exhibition, they notice the artist Juan Antonio (Javier Bardem). Cristina is impressed with him at first sight, and grows intrigued when Judy and Mark tell the girls that the artist has suffered a publicly violent relationship with his ex-wife. Later that night, the girls notice him across the room in a restaurant. He approaches their table and quickly invites them to join him for the weekend in the city of Oviedo, in the small plane he flies himself, for sight-seeing, drinking wine, and (Juan Antonio hopes) sex. Cristina accepts the brazen offer almost at once, but Vicky refuses, strongly resenting his assumption that the two of them would agree to go to bed with him after less than five minutes' acquaintance. She eventually decides to accompany her friend anyway, mainly as she says "to protect Cristina from making a big mistake".

At the end of their first day, Juan Antonio asks both women to come to his room. Vicky refuses, but Cristina agrees, though she falls ill before any love making happens. For the remainder of the weekend, Vicky and Juan Antonio are forced together while Cristina recuperates. During their trip, he tells her about his ex-wife and his tumultuous relationship with her and takes her to visit his father, an old poet, making Vicky change her negative first impression of him. After more wine over dinner and an intimate guitar concert, Vicky succumbs to his charms and sleeps with him.

The next day, Juan takes them back to Barcelona. Vicky, feeling guilty, does not mention the incident to Cristina, and the two begin to grow apart, Vicky throwing herself into her Catalan culture studies and Cristina taking up photography. Soon Juan Antonio is dating Cristina. Meanwhile, Doug unexpectedly telephones Vicky, suggesting that they get married in Spain. She agrees, with unspoken misgivings, and he flies to meet her. Cristina and Juan Antonio grow closer and move in together.

One night, Cristina and Juan Antonio are woken up by a call, learning that Juan's ex-wife María Elena (Penélope Cruz) has attempted to kill herself. Since she has nowhere else to go, Juan Antonio brings her home, and she moves into the guest room. Though initially María Elena distrusts Cristina, she soon grows fond of her and her photography.

Cristina soon realizes that the ex-spouses are still in love, and María Elena confides that their relationship was always loving but unstable because they were missing something, a mystery element neither of them figured out. María Elena now suggests that the missing link is in fact, Cristina, and the three become polyamorous. Cristina discloses the events of her life to Vicky, who appears secretly jealous of her friend's relationship with Juan Antonio, and to Doug, who disapproves.

As the summer winds to a close, Vicky realizes that she is unsatisfied in her married life, and is still attracted to Juan Antonio. She learns that Judy is also unhappy in her marriage, and confides in the older woman. Judy, who sees Vicky as a younger version of herself, decides to bring Juan Antonio and Vicky together. Meanwhile, Cristina becomes restless and announces she is leaving Juan Antonio and María Elena. Maria does not take the news well and breaks down. Cristina spends the last weeks of the summer in France. With their "missing link" gone, Juan Antonio and María Elena break up again.

Attempting to pair up Juan Antonio and Vicky, Judy arranges for them both to be at a party. Juan Antonio begs Vicky to meet him the next day. After lying to Doug, Vicky, against her better judgment, goes to Juan's home for lunch, after which Juan tries to seduce her again. She is at the point of consenting when María Elena bursts in with a gun and begins firing wildly. As Juan Antonio tries calm his sobbing wife, he accidentally shoots Vicky in the hand, wounding her slightly. Vicky shouts at both of them, saying they are insane and she could never live like this, and leaves.

When Cristina returns from France, Vicky confesses the entire story to her. Cristina says she never knew that Vicky felt that way about Juan Antonio, and she (Cristina) wishes she could have helped her. Doug never learns what truly happened. As the three Americans return home, Vicky goes back to her married life and Cristina remains where she started, knowing only what she doesn't want. Since Vicky chooses to live her rigidly planned ("perfect") life, and Cristina chooses to live without making predetermined plans, they end where they began.

*****The movie featured several paintings by the Catalan artist, Agustí Puig.
(see first painting at top!)

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Talula is all of these woman.
Right now she is Maria Elena. (someday...just you wait - i'll get Penelope to be Talula at an opening...)
Irrational, insane....crazed!!! But...true. honest. and real.
Her art drives her.
People call her crazy.
People try to make her think she's crazy...
but she's just ALIVE.
She's emotional and at the same time...
true and strong in her love.

Next week she'll be Christina....

and...Vicky - a bit dull and controlled...but applicable. You'll just have to
wait and see.

MORE PAINTINGS TO COME IN THIS SERIES.

"we do what we need to be free"

Damien Rices influence on Talula has been significant
to say the least.
He is so raw.
Talula yearns to be raw.
To have her emotions on her sleeve,
on her chest, dripping down her stomach,
to her thighs...and in between it all.

Damien - does that to her.

His lyrics are so real...you almost think
he didn't really just say that...
but he did.
And he meant it.

Talula steps aside...and the real artist steps forward.


rootless tree

what i want from you
is empty your head
they say be true,
don't stain your bed
we do what we need to be free
and it leans on me
like a rootless tree
what i want from us
is empty our minds
we fake a fuss
and fracture the times
we go blind
when we've needed to see
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around

what i want from this
is learn to let go
no not of you
of all that's been told
killers reinvent and believe
and this leans on me
like a rootless...
so fuck you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out of this hell when you're around
let me out...
and fuck you, fuck you, i love you
and all we've been through
i said leave it
it's nothing to you
and if you hate me
then hate me so good that you can let me out
let me out...
it's hell when you're around

Down by the sea...So many people

This song gives me chills.
It runs right up and down my charcoal thighs.
Beck.
Seriously.

"Chemtrails"

I can't believe what we've seen outside
You and me watching the jets go by

Down by the sea
So many people
They've already drowned
You and me watching a sea full of people
Try not to drown

So many people
So many people
Where do they go?
You and me watching a sky full of chemtrails
That's where we belong

All I can take from these scars is hope
But all I can see in this night are boats sinking

Down by the sea swallowed by evil
We've already drowned
You and me watching a sea full of people
They've already drowned

So many people
So many people
Where do they go?
You and me watching a sky full of chemtrails
Watching the jet planes go by

You and me watching
You and me watching
The chemtrails is where we belong
That's where we'll be when we die in the slipstream
We'll climb in a hole in the sky


A random Copy and Paste Bloggers description that I believe relates to
Talula:

"Down by the sea / so many people falling in time" I think refers to a New York/Los Angeles type, or in general to a city on the brink of disaster, either real or social. "Try not to drown": don't get caught up in the modern race which ends in isolation and destruction.
"So many people / Where do they go?" reminds me of Elenore Rigby: "All the lonely people / Where do they all belong?".
"All I can take from these skies is fog / And all I can see in this light: a boat sinking": I look for God in this dark city, but all I find is evil.
He wants to escape through the holes made in the sky by the jets.

As Talula reaches for freedom and acceptance in herself and her artwork...
She too - finds it is only in the escape that she will succeed in this.

The artwork...solitude - yet the numbered sides suggest...time, planning and
organization.
Movement creates energy.

My best and favorite collector owns this! In completion of the artwork...
Talula knew that there was no better buyer for it!!!
Thanks Sean (and I love your girlfriend..I hope that's cool!!!)

The headless doll owned by Morticia Addams in The Addams Family is named Anne Boleyn, Wednesday Addams's doll is named Marie Antoinette.

Music & song
Anne is referenced in Tori Amos' song "Talula" on her Boys for Pele album with the lyrics 'Ran into the henchman who severed Anne Boleyn, he did it right quickly a merciful man. she said 1+1 is 2, but henry said that it was 3.'

Anne Boleyn is referenced in Roger Waters' song "Watching TV" on his Amused to Death album.

She is also referenced in a song titled "Old Age", written by Courtney Love and performed by her band Hole: "Someone please tell Anne Boleyn, Chokers are back in again." The song appeared on their outtakes album, My Body, the Hand Grenade.

The headless doll owned by Morticia Addams in The Addams Family is named Anne Boleyn, Wednesday Addams's doll is named Marie Antoinette.

The song "Transylvania" by McFly mentions Anne Boleyn and is portrayed by Dougie Poynter in the music video.

Anne Boleyn is mentioned in Blues Traveler's song "Hook".

Tori Amos' song "Talula" includes a verse about Anne Boleyn.

In Ugly Betty,Betty Suarez wears a replica of Anne Boleyn's necklace.

In a dream sequence at the start of Kevin & Perry Go Large, the teenage character Kevin is reading a book on Anne Boleyn for his homework, but instead his mind wanders to a sexual fantasy in which Anne (played by Natasha Little and speaking in 20th century teenage slang) convinces her executioner (Kevin) that to kill her would be a waste of her beautiful body and in return gives him oral sex.

The ghost of Anne haunting the Tower of London is the subject of the comically macabre song "With Her Head Tucked Underneath Her Arm", originally performed by Stanley Holloway and later recorded by The Kingston Trio.

In his 1973 album The Six Wives of Henry VIII, Rick Wakeman titled the fifth track "Anne Boleyn".

In British TV series The Office, the main character speaks of a club in town that had a bowling alley inside called the "Anne Boleyn" alley. Also there was a washroom in this club with a sign stating "Mind your Head," and "Don't get your Hampton Court (pron. caught)".

The Dutch symphonic rock band Kayak issued a single called Anne, about Anne Boleyn, from their album Periscope Life (1980).

In "Gossip Girl" (2009) , season two finale, Blair tells Jenny that "Anne Boleyn thought only with her heart and she got her head chopped off. So her daughter Elizabeth made a vow never to marry a man. She married a country.". Blair says this in order to make Jenny understand that if she wanted to be Queen Bee of Constance Billard School she needed to be cold.

"it goes like this, the fourth, the fifth, the minor fall, and the major lift"

Leonard Cohen

For four decades, Leonard Cohen has been one of the most important and influential songwriters of our time, a figure whose body of work achieves greater depths of mystery and meaning as time goes on. His songs have set a virtually unmatched standard in their seriousness and range. Sex, spirituality, religion, power – he has relentlessly examined the largest issues in human lives, always with a full appreciation of how elusive answers can be to the vexing questions he raises. But those questions, and the journey he has traveled in seeking to address them, are the ever-shifting substance of his work, as well as the reasons why his songs never lose their overwhelming emotional force.

Cohen's lyrical poetry and his view that "many different hallelujahs exist" is reflected in wide-ranging covers with very different intents or tones of speech, allowing the song to be ""melancholic, fragile, uplifting [or] joyous" depending on the performer:[1] John Cale, the first person to record a cover version of the song, promoted a message of "soberness and sincerity" in contrast to Cohen's dispassionate tone;[1] Jeff Buckley's cover is more sorrowful and was described by Buckley as "a hallelujah to the orgasm";[1][2] Allison Crowe interpreted the song as a "very sexual" composition that discussed relationships;[1] Rufus Wainwright offered a "purifying and almost liturgical" interpretation to the song;[1] and Guy Garvey of Elbow anthropomorphised the hallelujah as a "stately creature" and incorporated his religious interpretation of the song into his band's recordings.[1]

Well, maybe there is a God above,
But all that I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you.
It's not a cry that you hear at night,
And it is not somebody who has seen the light
It's a cold and it is a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Hallelujah

TALULA's Hallelujah:

takes all of the written interpretation and portrays what she believes
Hallelujah looks like and feels like via Leonard Cohens original idea
that many different uses of the word exist.
In this artwork Talula takes the common known visual of "the cross"
(IE: Tori Amos's lyrics - Get off the Cross; I need the Wood)
and pays tribute to the person in her life she has put on a pedestal.
Hallelujah means inspiration and how hard it is to stay inspired...
and what it takes to tie that inspiration to you...

Well, your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

and pain. Because with it all...there is always heartache....
But in the end...or the beginning...
You can always escape!


Well, baby, I've been here before.
I've seen this room, and I've walked this floor.
I used to live alone before I knew you.
But I've seen your flag on the marble arch,
And love is not a victory march,
It's a cold and it is a broken Hallelujah


RING THE BELLS - I HEAR FREEDOM!!!

Music...

Talula is ruled by music...her art is driven by lyrics.

In music her artwork finds it's soulmate. It is, and always has been,
that she see's her paintings through songs. Her lines dance to a Zeppelin
drum beat...
Emily Wells threw in a Zeppelin drum beat to Requiem...
I need to figure out what song it was...I feel like it was Kashmire..
but I'm not sure.
Seriously. IS SHE INSIDE OF MY HEAD....I swear she is inside of my head.

So...in tribute; once again to Miss Wells...

The original...original - Talula (created as a gift for a good friend...for her
marriage) The three piece Star Bottom Series. Talula needs to do another one of these soon. Bigger. Give it a little more shake!

Talula's gonna be a star people (and we all know what that really means)...are you coming along for this musical art tour or what????

Spread Love...it's the Brooklyn Way!

Talula in NY.

One of my biggest influences, and changing forces in my artwork
is Emily Wells.

Emily Wells creates music by blending her many influences. She is a classically trained violinist with a penchant for hip hop production. Live, Wells creates a lush layer of “symphonies” by looping and live sampling everything from her violin and voice, to her many toys and electronics. She performs both solo, and as a trio with drummer Sam Halterman and bassist Joey Reina, who also appear on her records.

Emily is one of the many reasons why Requiem resides so deeply in me...as (my real self) and as the artist I am becoming.

In this revolution of time (as irrelivant as I deem it)...her influence is matched only in my rooted attachment to Tori Amos.
However....
It's Emily whom I owe my gratitude to currently (Tori...you got me through college!!! and we all know...that was a task in itself...and my success only surfaced through your musical duct tape!)
She remixed Biggies Juicy like Biggie handed it down to her and said...Yea. Maybe it was missing the violin. Have at it. Ridiculous. It has been the song that I have given out the most. However...it is Fare Thee Well...that boosts me forward into this
Blackhole of Revelations (and yes...thank you Muse. For that one)...
I could go on - but I've gotta get on the road.

This is the artwork that defines me..(although it is the treasure of the real me...Talula gets to showcase it on occassion.) It's for Emily Wells - in gratitude; for 2009. You are now tattoo'ed to my insanity. (which in all logic...is simply just the sanity that I live in.)

Nameste Mother Fuckers. AHHHHHHH a brilliant oxymoron!!!!